illogical

I've been terribly sad lately, and slept badly.
I saw a nightmare of the girl who is all bee's knees and I'm trying to cope with that.
I am trying to cope with a lot of things:

• this fuzzy warm feeling I get when I'm around her
• the fact that I'm not straight and she is
• the fact that my grades are dropping
• the fact that I'll come across these same feelings again some day
• the fact that if she knew what I felt we would no longer be friends
• star trek: tos has only 3 season and i thought it had at least 10
• feelings. 

and these are mostly the things that make me sad, too. Then there is sadness that is actually caused by nothing particular, but it weights me down.